About Me: I, Closed Box (A post-Hoffman Story)


About Me

Howdy. I’m David, born in 1979 in Southend-On-Sea, but a London resident since 1984. Once upon a time, I was a mess. My father left when I was 4, and again when I was 7, and I had a mother who had no idea how to relate to me emotionally. For 21 years, I lived through abject depression, anxiety, insecurity, rock-bottom self-esteem and any number of drug and behavioural problems. At age 11, I saw my first therapist, and in the 17 years of therapy, therapists and every sort of treatment money can buy, I essentially got nowhere. Eventually, I reached the end of my tether; with a life that was going nowhere on all fronts, and with what I had become.

The Blog’s title ‘Back, and to The Future’ is a reference to something that happened in my life in April 2008. I was seeing yet another new therapist until one session, she turned around to me and said ‘I can’t help you’. Eventually, partly due to lack of options, and partly due to pure dumb luck, I enrolled  on to a self-help course known as The Hoffman Process, an 8-day, intensive residential programme designed to break you down to the very core of your insecurities, anxieties and problems, before building you right back up again. I did indeed step back, only to take steps into the future, and completed the process on 11th July 2008.

This blog begins the day after I returned home.

EDIT: I have noticed a number of people viewing this blog because they have done a web search for ”Hoffman Process” or ”Hoffman Process Completion” or something like that. This blog may or may not be useful to you, but whatever you’re looking for, i’d suggest starting at the beginning: https://backandtothefuture.wordpress.com/2008/07/13/back-and-to-the-future/.


15 Responses to “About Me: I, Closed Box (A post-Hoffman Story)”

  1. sulz Says:

    why do you call yourself closed box? (is that explained somewhere in your blog?) 🙂

  2. David Levy Says:

    Sadly, I can’t tell…

  3. Tonje Says:

    I’m sitting here with a cup of hot chocolate and reading your blog, which I found when I was bored at school, and I must say I really enjoy reading it. (Eventhough I don’t understand everything you write, and don’t know what The Hoffman Process is, but I’ll blame that on the fact that I am sixteen years, and from Norway, and I am not used to read so “difficult” texts.) I haven’t read all your blog entries yet, but my cup is not empty.
    I think you seem like a really interesting man, you are really a good writer and your blog is now one of the blogs I will read a lot. So now you know. 😀

  4. Tonje Says:

    Oh, well. That will be embarrasing.. For both of us, I will presume. xD

  5. Tonje Says:

    I am going to write on saturday, when I get home. 🙂
    Then you get to see my new clothes. Hurray!

  6. Henry Levy Says:

    My parental history is very similar. My parents divorced when I was 5. My mother was very immature emotionally.
    Never saw my dad till I was in my 20’s then he died.
    Maybe this is a Levy thing?

  7. Michael Tim Says:

    I love your site!

    Experiencing a slow PC recently? Fix it now!

  8. Excellent site, keep up the good work. I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis and for the most part, people lack substance but, I just wanted to make a quick comment to say I’m glad I found your blog. Thanks,

    A definite great read…


  9. Donnieboy Says:

    Just wanted to drop you a line to say, I enjoy reading your site. I thought about starting a blog myself but don’t have the time.
    Oh well maybe one day…. 🙂

  10. John Says:

    Still love you man !

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